thanks woop.

Oh Pink, I don't know exactly what to say. But, may be you are just tired, after a very hard year.
You are very young, the idea of loosing weight is great, you could begin with this and the workout will make you feel active.
That is a beginning, probably after that, other things will be returning to normal.
I wish you the best, and I'm here if you want to talk.

Anytime, Pink! I'm not trying to minimize your feelings but it has only been 4 weeks. Maybe you are going through a withdrawal since you've been used to your life being a certain way for so long? Some more time to get used to the newness may help improve your state. Not saying that you have a loan problem or anything but there is a reason that student loan lenders give grads about 6 months before repayment period begins - grads need time to adjust.

So, I say go through what you need to go through because I think it's normal.

yeah QUEENMARGO, i think the losing weight would have to be the motivation that i'm looking for to get me going with my life. i could gain new sense of confidence with myself.

and WOOP, the hug icon was sweet. it was what i needed after i typed out this whole post. and you're right it's only been 4 weeks and i think i am going through school withdrawal since i have been used to doing things certain ways. now it's like, wow i actually have to plan out my life without getting help. like before i only had to worry about planning what do with my 3 months of summer, now it's my whole life ahead of me.

and as for the loan, here's the thing. i only owe $20,000, which isn't a huge loan compared to what i hear from fellow college graduates, so i'm not in hurry to get a job. i still have my part-time job and money from graduation to carry me for three months or more after that 6 month period.

I will be in your exact situation next May. I don't have any serious plans but I was thinking about traveling for a few months. Maybe you could move to another state where the environment is different. Give it some time, you just graduated. You have the right to be lazy right now after for years of college. Good luck.

thanks kazagirl. if airfare wasn't so expensive i would be traveling right now.

Trust me, four weeks is nothing!! When I graduated from college it took me months to find a job in my field. I too have a degree in journalism. And in my part of the country the market in SLIM. In my head I was going to be the editor of Rolling Stone or Vogue. Let's just say it hasn't happened yet.

Keep writing, keep freelancing, and write just for yourself. And honestly, you should take sometime out and figure out your path.

It really does take time. And snap out of it, you are a spunky girl (I know this from your posts) you can do it!!!

Style Before Comfort!

As the others have stated, it sounds like your dealing with withdrawl from not having college in your life anymore. You were so used to having a schedule to follow and you do not have that right now. Maybe, start with getting fit and having yourself on a workout routine; then when you notice yourself achieving your goal, the rest of your to-do list might start to fall into place and you will have the motivation to go after them.

All will be okay and you will find yourself again. I've been through some lack of motivation a few times (I've been dealing with one recently however it stems from self-esteem issues) and it might take a few more weeks however you will be yourself again soon.

Maybe meditation could help you clear your mind and help inspire you to write again. All you need is 15 minutes (even 5 minutes can help) and when yur done, a few ideas might come to mind.

"Keep writing, keep freelancing, and write just for yourself." i really love that advice Lala. thank you.

and leeluv, i agree i think i need to focus on getting fit first and then maybe all things will fall in together.

thank you so much for your thoughtful words ladies.

I happen to think what you're going through is very understandable. You're done with school and it's not easy to transition. I hit that going from high school to college, college to work, and even sometimes between jobs. Try to go easy on yourself. It's only 3 weeks. Start small.

Get up everyday and eat a healthy breakfast. Then eat a healthy lunch. And a healthy dinner. Then add in some exercise. Then make that part of each day. Soon enough you'll find you're feeling better, physically and mentally.

I also think you should start applying for jobs and going on interviews. That doesn't mean you have to take any job you get offered. But interviewing has a way of invigorating; getting your wheels spinning.

Just some thoughts.

But it's not easy to go through what you're going through, so again; don't be too hard on yourself. Just slowly start to make changes, and you might find yourself waking up ready to tackle the day.

Good luck.

thank you marci, i love the advices you gave.

wow totally spelled four wrong.

you know I think after school it is I think normal to take rest for a while after college,, I understand your situation because I ma also in college and I am planning to do what you are doing now.. that is to RELAX and have fun after college.. and also it is just about 1 month after your graduation so I think it is still normal not to know what you want to do exactly.. but goodluck in whatever is your decision.. ! goodluck

thank you ces. i guess it's just that i'm so use to knowing what i want to do that now that i don't is very foreign to me.

pinks, i think it is very natural for you to feel like doing nothing after doing so much and following through on a demanding schedule. maybe you need a bit of time to relax, rejuvenate, rest? spend some time taking care of yourself - a nice bath, eat healthy, go for a long walk, sit on a bench and watch some children play, look up at the stars at night. perhaps you too are in need of a recess. play! give yourself a bit of time and then plan a date where you pick up your list and start making plans. there's this great quote, which i can't find right at this moment, but basically it reminds you that a seed spends some time in the soil, taking in nourishment and gathering energy, before it stretches up and out of the ground to become a seedling. some might think the seed is doing nothing when it is underground, but that is far from the truth.

thank you bizzybee. i love the message behind the quote.

Pink, the one thing that college's don't teach is a class in self motivation after graduation. After I graduated I fell back into a retail job because I lacked the self confidence to look for a job in my field even though I was thoroughly trained for a professional position. I eventually moved away from home and got a job in my field through a connection. Try networking with college friends, professors, freelance if you can, this keeps your resume current. Hey, you're one smart and talented chick, things will be okay!